I am God's handiwork
“For you created my inmost being you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful; I know that full well.” Psalm 139:13-14
There are no coincidences with God. One day recently I was sharing with friends what my favourite psalm was and the reason why and one friend asked me if I had ever had the opportunity to share my story as it might encourage others. The very next day I had an email from Fernanda asking me if I would do a post for the Women Together Blog! So here it goes:
To understand why Psalm 139 is one of my favourites, you need to know a bit about me. I spent most of my early childhood, holidays and weekends with my grandparents and when my parents divorced when I was 11 years old I went to live with them permanently as neither parent wanted me. Theses loving non-Christian grandparents coped with a very difficult child. I changed schools and met a girl from my primary school days who took me to a church youth group. No coincidences with God! I said yes to Jesus at a Billy Graham Crusade and have continued with my walk with Him over the past years with many ups and downs. One thing I continued to find difficult was the feeling of not being good enough and rejection by my parents. I was envious of my cousins with their loving parents and the idea of a loving Father in God was difficult too.
It was many years later when listening to a sermon about Psalm 139 that it finally hit me that although my parents did not want me God had watched me from the moment of my conception. Being a knitter verse 13, ‘…you knit me together in my mother’s womb’ spoke to me. Anyone who knits knows the concentration you need to follow a difficult pattern and as the psalm says, ‘I am fearfully and wonderfully made’. God concentrated on me! As I read the Psalm, I realised that I might not have had parents who watched me grow up, but I had a loving Father who had been there at every step. WOW.
I have had depression since my late teens and my Christian life has not been easy, but this Psalm tells me that God knows me so intimately, every movement, every thought, and every word before its spoken and still loves me. When I don’t feel Him near no matter where I am, physically or mentally, He is there. So, the next time you feel alone, rejected, or sad read this Psalm and be uplifted.
By Lyn Garrod
Lyn with her husband Dave is a member of St Margaret’s Church. They have 2 children and 6 grandchildren.